没有期望，就不会有失望 。。

今晚，我又不受控制，无理头的心情不好了 >_<

时常听别人说，大多数女人时常都会无端端的心情不好，

感到心里闷闷的，不过就不知道是为了什么？？　唉！

突然觉得有一句话很对，　就是　“没有特别的期望，那就不会有任何的失望了” 。。对吧？？

給所有累了的人..

真的只是有時候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆。

真的只是有時候，突然覺得心情煩躁，看什麼都覺得不舒服，心裡悶的發慌，拼命想尋找一個出口。

真的只是有時候，發現身邊的人都不瞭解自己，面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話。

真的只是有時候，感覺自己與世界格格不入，曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非。

真的只是有時候，突然很想逃離現在的生活，想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪。

真的只是有時候，別人突然對你說，我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集。

真的只是有時候，希望時間為自己停下，就這樣和喜歡的人地老天荒。

真的只是有時候，在自己脆弱的時候，想一個人躲起來，不願別人看到自己的傷口。

真的只是有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的哭不出來。

真的只是有時候，夜深人靜的時候，突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓。

真的只是有時候，明明自己心裡有很多話要說，卻不知道怎樣表達。

真的只是有時候，覺得自己其實一無所有，仿佛被世界拋棄。

真的只是有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單。

真的只是有時候，很想放縱自己，希望自己徹徹底底醉一次 。

真的只是有時候，自己的夢想很多，卻力不從心。

真的只是有時候，常常找不到事情，無聊的無所適從。

真的只是有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟了。

真的只是有時候，心裡突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒，覺得自己很累很累。

真的只是有時候，看不到自己未來的樣子，迷茫的不知所措。

真的只是有時候，發現自己一夜之間長大了。

真的只是有時候，聽到一首老歌，就突然想起一個人。

真的只是有時候，別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話，心裡鬱悶的發慌。

真的只是有時候，常常在回憶裡掙扎，有很多過去無法釋懷。

真的只是有時候，渴望別人的關懷，渴望一份簡單的快樂。

真的只是有時候，看著時間一點點流逝，自己卻無能為力..............


短言：今天在facebook 看到这，觉得很像有时候的我！！所以就放到我的部落格和大家分享咯。。

如果。 有一天

如果 有一天
我不再對你說我想你，
如果 有一天
我不再對你說我愛你，
如果 有一天
我不再主動找你，
如果 有一天
我也不會吃醋了，
那恭禧你 你自由了，
而我 也真的放下了。

一个人的心底话

可不可以有一個人…
可以看穿我的逞強。
可以保護我的脆弱。

不要在我說「沒事啦，你去吧」的時候
就真的會放心的放開我的手然後留我一個人。

不要在我笑笑的不說話的時候
就真的會以為我心裏沒有覺得疼痛和難過。

不要在我若無其事的忙碌著手頭的事的時候
就真的會以為我什麼影響都沒有受到。

我希望他會在我的眼淚掉下以前
就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛。
然後輕聲說我的眼睛只有微笑的時候才是最好看。

我希望他會在我面無表情的時候輕輕的用力的摟緊我。
然後說你在我的面前永遠都不需要偽裝堅強。

我希望他會在我受到委屈的時候把我的腦袋按在他的肩膀上。
然後撫著我的頭髮說沒關係就算所有的人都不相信你你都還有我。

Unpredictable Life

Today 04 October 2010, i had gone through an unexpected tragedy in my office,i never ever think of this will happen so sudden right in front of me, let me begin the with the sad story ,as usual early in the morning , we are so busy rushing monthly and quarterly report, about 10sth , i heard my colleague said there is someone from other department(which is at the other corner of the floor), there is a malay guy faint while he retrieving date at the share pc area, at 1st , we thought is nothing big deal, maybe he faint due to fatigue , but after awhile , my colleague said he had passed away ..WHAT ?? he passed away just like that, we are all like kind of shock !! how can life be so filmsy, my opposite colleague said she still see him sitting there retrieve date in the morning, now said he passed away d, so me and my frens walk over to have a look , i can see everyone crying there, especially his same department colleague, i can see my fren sharon, which is sit opposite him for more than 2 years, crying so sad , but i not convenience to walk over and comfort her as that time too many ppl around there. At that moment, i realy hope to share with persons that i love, tell them how much i love them , appreciate them and do take care themselves as life is so short, we cant predict what will happen next .. After 15 minutes, his wife reach at our office , once his wife step in , she walk also need ppl to hold her , keep crying and yelling where is her husband, when she see her husband lying on the floor, she straight away sit on the floor and cry,i can feel how pain is his wife, suddenly one morning she lost her husband without have a chance to say goodbye, at the moment, we can't control our tears dropping down,everyone start to cry, that moment is like we so sad cz we lost a colleague unexpectedly, although i not that close with him, but i also feel so sad, condolences to him and his family , may he can rest in peace and his family will be strong and live better in future. After that incident, the whole office environment is moody and full of sadness...

Guys and Girls, Life is so short and unpredictable, we should love and appreciate whatever we are having.

b@d day !!

Today 29 September 2010 consider is my bad day, because my boss tease me in the usual indirect way again on my work, this is not the 1st time she did like that, she always indirectly hurt ppl by doing this, she never ever notice that cz she is the boss. the story begin like this .

This month , there is a reclassification of figure in the functional area that i in charge, and it affect my another report which is i realy realy dunno the report will being affected >_<>

OK back to the topic, when i enter into my boss cubicle, she said , act u understand or not this and that, i said i tie it with my report already, is TIE , but she said u need to adjust from here also , u din aware ? honestly i realy dunoo need to amend that side , =.= must remember this is the 1st time i encounter this problem , i not clear also reasonable right? haih but she is boss, she wan to say anything i cant control her. she start shaking her head and keep checking and mumbling , y u dunno this and that la bla bla bla ..... i just can treat it as left ear in and right ear out, wat can i do? wat should i do ? at that moment , i hope there is someone will tell me You are not alone, cuz I am here with you always .. then at least i will feel a little bit warm . *wink*

ok la done for the complain, phew feel release now d .. must remember vin chi no PAIN no GAIN !!

First time blogging...

Bonjour everyone ! let me start this blog with the question why i named my blog as " I'm not vincci" , this is because , everyone include my close frens, colleagues even frens that i just know each other, they like to call me vincci instead of my actual name Vin Chi, maybe is due to vincci is more easier to pronounce haha , but i still prefer my original name Vin Chi , special right :P Blogging is a good in term of  release my emotion through writting form instead of speaking so stay tuned for more updates , see ya :)